Twenty fifteen was a rollercoaster ride for me; filled with ups and downs. People know me today as someone who has a positive outlook on life, someone happy and just a little awkwardly friendly. But not a lot of people know that the old me was a far cry from who I am today. After coming out from a bad break up, I started hanging out with bad company and got involved in things that harmed me emotionally and physically. For a year, I struggled with depression and was trapped in many addictions. My interest in even trying to live life well was lost and gradually stopped going to school. By then, I was already failing my classes.
I realised that I didn’t have to remain shackled by my past. This gave me the motivation to quit my old life.
Through His love in the people He placed around me, I got to know our God who redeems — a God who loves me
During that season, even though I wasn’t a frequent churchgoer, my leaders would constantly invite me to cell groups and outings. They saw my flaws, yet continued to invest themselves into my life. Over time, we got closer and I grew to know a lot more friends in church. Spending time with them, be it playing basketball or fellowshipping over supper, showed me that there was a way to live life meaningfully. I realised that I didn’t have to remain shackled by my past. This gave me the motivation to quit my old life. Today, no longer do I desire to get wasted on Friday nights or get high when life gave me lemons. Letting go of these habits wasn’t easy, but I am thankful for those who stuck by me.
I’ve learnt that my commitment has to be stronger than my emotions
Through His love in the people He placed around me, I got to know our God who redeems — a God who loves me, and He became the centre of my life. The Bible says “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come; The old has gone, the new is here!”. I committed myself to church, and before I knew it, my life became a testimony to many others.
Having more responsibilities in church taught me to think others over myself, and I believe that is how you mature as a person.
Having more responsibilities in church taught me to think others over myself, and I believe that is how you mature as a person. It still amazes me what God did to my life. I am changed, but I know that He is still changing me. This year, I look forward to serving in ministries, building solid relationships and stepping out to do what is beyond my comfort zone — because I’ve learnt that my commitment has to be stronger than my emotions, all the days of my life.